HURRAH.

Quite excited nowadays. :D yayyyy. LONDONNNNN. UKKKK. :DDDDDDD YAYYY:D so excited :) although we're not going to doctor who experience in cardiff(huch is like such a waste. And theworst part is that they just moved out of London the year before). /: but still :D THE COLD AND FAMILY TIME :D PLUS, the SNOWWWWWWW :DDDDDDDDDD

SOOO EXCITED. heh. Just went for sccl video shot today. :) heh. It was quite a good learning experience. Like just for ONE short 1min? scene it took like 1.5h! :O Oh but it was the first time I earned my first income :DDD. My hard earned $30 :) maybe it's not much but still. The first time I actually earned CASH! I mean I got vouchers for the dad's for life contest before. But no, no proper moneyyyy :D not sure what I should do with it /: treatmy family to lunch? Buy some frivolous object of desire? Save it? Donate it? Boy I really don't know.

Now going for gong Gina's birthday dinner :) in the car. This is prolly why I love the ipad. Not cos it's an ipad but more cos of the 3G :D super convenient! Esp since my house wifi is.... Lets just say I've seen loads better /:

OMMMM has been slightly better? Although I won't call chasing ppl for work fun but its better than doing all the work :D

Min:D
Things are looking up :D well and like Christmas too :DDDDDD

DECK THE HALLS

It's been a while since I've update /: School Hols now :D Though it's not much of a holiday. With CCA and homework(Can you beat it? I now have homework even during december holidays D: But oh wells), Not to mention OM :O heh. Thought it was going to be all funn. But i realise that it's more of a time commitment than i ever thought it was gonna be. /: Sighs now all i do all day is OM. I think OM. I breathe OM. I eat OM. I even sleep OM. like I have countless of dreams or should I say nightmares of my members not doing anything. GAHHH. It's not that I  don't trust them. As in I worked with most of them before, maybe I really just need to take the backseat for a while. But I'm afraid they won't do their work. Oh man. Although we still have one month more to do finish Phase 1 but I really think we're behind time. Not to mention, I'm going overseas in a week's time and i doubt they'll do work. I really should put someone in charge for the time being.

The whole house is in a Christmas mood now :DD I even decorated a christmas wreath :DDDD
The christmas tree is done with our usual frosty Christmas theme :D MY mum says we're having this mini post Christmas party, gonna invite some of my friends :D Not sure who and how many though /:

Min :D

EOYs are OVERRR (partially at least)

Everyone has been on this superrrr relaxed mood since last Friday. Including me of course. I mean with all the humans subj.s a.k.a heavy memorising subjects over I can't help. Sadly, there's still Science nad Chinese Paper 2. Not to mention, MA paper 1 :((((

Sigh. Maths was a killer on FRiday. And everyone just came out looking superrr depressed :((( I think my math standard has dropped. After PSLE i toook toooooo long a break I guess. I used to be able to take half the time to finish the paper but now :((( I just managed to finish on time. No checking even!!! :OOOOOO
D:

Dear dear. Nowadays, I 'm quite confused with myself. /: As usual. While I',m hoping that this time I won't end up walking myself off a cliff. I can't help but be concern if I'm already near the cliff. Of course given my "no turning back" mindset I'm not surprised. Still, I wonder if I'm giving too much. I know this is ridiculously selfish and I'm disgusted with myself as I talk but... Am i taking too little.

Sighs. I dunno why ppl tend to think I'm "strong" or "perfect" or whatever. They seem blinded by my show that they don't see my flaws. That mask of mine has this like magical ability to hide all of this /: So confusing.

I realised that if I ever get stalked then my blog would just reveal everything about me xDDDD I type and "talk" too much. But everything I'm thinking is well in my head. So I'm writing as I think. Which is what makes it dangerous since anyone with basic cognitive/psychology? thinking would be able to know like everything about me. dear dear... Maybe that's why it's good that I have a low traffic. You know? Typical in ny.. BORING. I'm not any high profile social queen(freak) so yeah :D

Science on Monday. Forgot all my bio terms :(((( Back to mugging like a no lifer i guess :((

Min?

STANDing UP^

I just feel super irritated with myself. and urghhhh. >:((((( Like basically, I was at this hawker centre for lunch.(I don't normally go there. I just went cos I had to get my passport and it was nearby) When I had bought my food,I  sat down at this table where the rest of my family had been waiting. It was like this bench/table thing like at our canteen. So then this old lady just came and sat next to me. I'll call her old lady A.She sat with leg facing out. (like when you sit to get a quick rest) I thought she just wanted to sit down maybe cos like she was really tired and stuff from walking . You know, the usual leg problems that older folk have. So I just sat there an ate my noodles. Then this hawker lady came( she was trying to clear the table).I'll call her old laby B Then, she was like asking the old lady to get out of her way. Then after that Old lady B was like taunting old lady A with that horrible tone that you'll recognize as bullying. She was like "you no money to buy food is it? You want me to give you 10 dollars? How about I go and pick up some food(from the table) for you to eat? You want?" All in hokkien(which I can understand fyi).Then, Old lady A just said nothing and just stood there while being mocked and taunted by Old lady B. And I just sat there and ate my noodles and did nothing. And I feel so mad at myself for doing nth. I mean idk the whole story. But I'm guessing Old Lady A prolly comes and sits down at the hawker centre everyday. Maybe she has no money to buy food and stuff so she just waits there for people to finish eating and eats their food. This thought already hurts me so bad. And I'm also guessing Old Lady B has this huge problem with that or sth. And that can probably be linked to some potential counselling-needed problem she has. Anyways, this whole thing just saddens me. Apart from the fact that there's all this poverty that I'm not normally exposed to( I mean like nowadays we're all so shielded and we don't really see all these stuff happening in front of us. And the possibility of it just really makes me feel useless and helpless. ), what I really couldn't stand was not doing anything at all. I mean like I AM SUCH A HYPOCRITE. Like I'm always saying "stand up for others in need","Oh we need to do some action and not just talk" And there I was eating my noodles watching this all happen. I feel like so bad. And then like afterwards I had like all these imaginary scenes in my mind on what ?I could have done and I just feel so sucky and stuff. And like I'm just like this horrible beast who did nth when I was given a chance to do sth. Like how terrible and cruel am I?

Okay, so after that like I saw this  middle-aged lady picking up cans. I know how terribly ignorant I sound but I always just had this impression that only older ppl do it. Working class ppl just get some job and stuff. So like yeah cultural shock there. And all this was next to this office building where \office workers(abt the same age)were just streaming out going for their lunch. They probably also go to the same hawker centre as above everyday and turned a blind eye like I did. I mean like great contrast there. You know these ppl in smart suits and stuff which are supposed to be so educated just do nth and pretend they don't see nothing .So like, does this prove that our education system is training us to be hypocrites or sth? 

After this whole "trip" there, I feel terrible. I feel bad for the Old folks there. I feel bad for the lifeless and cruel zomvies we are slowly turning to today. In general, I just feel bad.

Thanks for hearing me rant about how horrible a person I am. Good Bye.

STUDY. MUG. SLEEP. My daily routine

BIO IS OVERRRR. Which is bad. *actually* cos that means EOYs are nearing DDDD: At least I studied for bio alr so i don't need to redo that :) heh. I'm like superrr slowwww for LA I took 1h to finish my lit response which leaves me like 1 h to write my essay since ppr 1 is only 2 hours :((((( I hope I can finish it :( If I can't it'll be like the FIRST paper that I can't finish. EVER. And I prolly won't get my A1 and it'll totally pull my grades down :((( byebye top3 in class. I'm hoping for that. At least. If I'm able to pull of a 1.0 for EOYs it should be fine. I think. But my class is just full of geniuses and I'm like just some dumbo who got in by fluke. So yeah :(

Today, they announced some new initiative called LAP or sth. Leadership Apprentice Program. I personally think it kinda defeats the purpose /: But oh well. It's a leadership opportunity so I'm going to go for it. There's this thing in which you need to get endorsement from your peers which would be like sooooo weird cos i can just imagine everyone going "Will you endorse me PUH-LEASE????" and then they wil just help to endorse each other which once again makes it reallyyy redundant /:  Then, I'll have to like begg ppl to endorse me which is just TOO weird...

Apart from my school life currently, there isn't much  "other life" that I have to manage for now. Cos It's like mainly focusing on school and sidelining my social life for now xDDDDD After EOYs are over then I'll start planning fort next year ;)

Min :DDD

BIO. I .HATEEE. YOU

Gosh. Bio's being a real pain in the neck. It's just like 3 days away and I really know I shouldn't be on this but I'm here. Which just serves to prove how slack I am. I mean I'm trying to study and all. But I just lose my concentration after 10 min /:

Sighs. Just checked moelc portal. My oral timing is 2.30. That's the FIRST time slot. And I'll just be like wa ta shi wa dunno anything at all. /: Sighs. I'm like really just dumb at jap. D: Not sure if I should continue next year. It IS quite fun(when i pay attention xD) and my parents are just highly supportive. Still it's taking wayyy tooo much of my time up,. Not that I would be able to do anything productive withing those 4 hours /: Hmmm.... But that's the least of my worries now :DDDD

Ms Falilah nominated like a handful of us for the WBH outstanding community service award. :) Heh. But I don't think I'll get it. I mean there's like ONLY 1 in the whole level. AND in terms of awards I'd rather get first in class though that's quite a far stretch from where I stand now. Let's just say CA2 wasn't really good. And my bio pracs and math quizzes were all quite just made it to pass. Which is REALLYYYY BADDDD news DDD: On top of that my class is just some smarty poopy pants class so I can expect that I'm dropping from 4th to all the way down to the lowest of the lowest pits :(

CCA so far has been okay. I mean since there HASN'T *actually* have ANY CCA. hmmm... I think I'll just go in next year and some of the seniors will just think I'm some sec1 xDDDDD

Ohh. LONDON. I realised I haven't started going crazyyy about how Imma going to LONDON. WOOHOO~~~~ SUPER ULTRA HAPPY!! I MEAN DOCTOR WHO~~~~ AND SHERLOCK~~~~~ YAYAYAYAYAY! Okays, I go a bit xiao when I talk about all thing British xD That and I really LURVE CAPS :DDDDD

Oh, for our Malacca trip we have an item to put up and we had this discussion yesterday. I'm not saying I'm BRILLIANT or anything it's just that I think Kimberly needs to work a lot harder on the prompting and getting constructive ideas back. /: It's just paining to watch everything from my seat. I mean I know she's trying hard( I hope at least) but yeah, she needs to do STH. But anyways she has like the support of the ppl so like she'll have no probs winning the next elections anyways. Why do I feel like ahem ahem wants to run. No it's not what you think It's just some of my Sherlock Intuition xD

kk. Back to trying to concentrate. D:

Min<3333

it's been a while

So many things have happened recently and life was quite in a mess for the past months. It's starting to get back to my normal self, but still something just isn't quite the same /: THere's nothing much that's within my control now :(

I guess I just need to study hard for EOYs but i haven't exactly seem to get the concentration. Major (trying at least) cramming for bio. Problem is,Im sooooo tired nowadays. Probably cos I stay up(quite) late to watch shows xD Hmmm... Just had a bet with Goh today. The winner(gets the highest marks for EOYs) shall treat the loser to a cone of island :D Heh. Goh get ready to be treated ;) haha. THough I really think  she'll do bettter anyways. Afterall it's Goh Wing En;)Nowadays, I feel that she's like the only one in school at least that can fully understand me for who i am. :)) It's nicew having ppl like her :D

Just did our FPS presentation yesterday. I felt it went quite okay :) Quite. I guess. HOPEFULLY, we do well.... heh.

Oh, recently I just started a twitter account:) Im @itsthesamerain . This comes from "blink" a doctor who episode :DDD It's actually quite a sad quote... Anyways, if you have twitter then come follow me :) I follow back :DD xDDDD

Min :D

P.S:Y OPPA GANGNAM STYLE~